As time passes...

Time seems to just fly by. It's already November. I don't even know where the time is going. I'm already a junior in high school...I remember being a freshman. Seems like just yesterday. We all grow up, I know. I just don't think I'm ready. I don't think I'm ready to grow up and be thrown out into the real world.

I'm not ready for the change, I'm not even ready to be a senior. My boyfriend is a senior now which means he's going to be graduating. He's going to be going to college, and I'll be stuck in high school. I know we're not going to see each other much...I'm trying to prepare myself for that, but I don't think I can. Not seeing him everyday at school, not walking with him to class...its so...different. I've grown to get used to that. Since freshman year.

Recently I've been having dreams that he's going to leave me. He reassures me everytime that it won't happen, that he won't leave me. I do believe him, but it is constantly on the back of my mind. I'm afraid that something is going to happen to us, something that would make us break up. I really don't want that to happen. I don't know what I would do if that was to happen.

As time passes, I see myself getting closer to him. Not on a physical level, but an emotional level. Our hearts connects more and more. He holds my heart and I hold his. I know that high school relationships don't normally last. I know that people think its stupid and its not really love, but I know...for a fact, that this is love. This is the guy I can honestly see myself growing old with. He's the guy I want to marry and start a family with. He's helped me overcome so much. He made me a better person, and showed me what love really is.

I love the way he looks at me, the way he holds me, the way he kisses me, the way he hugs me, the way he sings to me and kisses my forehead while I'm sleeping, the little things he does to show me he cares. It's all endless. After all this time, he still gives me butterflies everytime I see him walking towards me.

I'm going to love him, forever and ever. Until the end of time...

No matter what.

The only guy in my life <3

I can’t honestly say I know what forever entails. I can tell you that its gonna be long. It’s gonna take a lot of hard work. We're gonna scream, and fight, and get so angry with each other it doesn’t make sense. But underneath it all, we're going to love each other like no one will ever understand. We're going to be the ones that can look at each other and just know- know beyond the shadow of a doubt that this is the real thing; that we're proving everyone wrong with every breath we take and every word we say; that the person angel next to us is the most amazing thing about our own existence; and how that fact will never ever change. That's the way it was on May 29, 2007, and that's the way it'll be on May 29, 2113. I love you Rizal- more than words could say; more than actions could express; more than a million people could ever hope to accomplish in their entire million lifetimes. you are my whole heart and soul, and that is something that can never, ever be taken away from me