I'm not ready for the change, I'm not even ready to be a senior. My boyfriend is a senior now which means he's going to be graduating. He's going to be going to college, and I'll be stuck in high school. I know we're not going to see each other much...I'm trying to prepare myself for that, but I don't think I can. Not seeing him everyday at school, not walking with him to class...its so...different. I've grown to get used to that. Since freshman year.
Recently I've been having dreams that he's going to leave me. He reassures me everytime that it won't happen, that he won't leave me. I do believe him, but it is constantly on the back of my mind. I'm afraid that something is going to happen to us, something that would make us break up. I really don't want that to happen. I don't know what I would do if that was to happen.
As time passes, I see myself getting closer to him. Not on a physical level, but an emotional level. Our hearts connects more and more. He holds my heart and I hold his. I know that high school relationships don't normally last. I know that people think its stupid and its not really love, but I know...for a fact, that this is love. This is the guy I can honestly see myself growing old with. He's the guy I want to marry and start a family with. He's helped me overcome so much. He made me a better person, and showed me what love really is.
I love the way he looks at me, the way he holds me, the way he kisses me, the way he hugs me, the way he sings to me and kisses my forehead while I'm sleeping, the little things he does to show me he cares. It's all endless. After all this time, he still gives me butterflies everytime I see him walking towards me.
I'm going to love him, forever and ever. Until the end of time...
No matter what.
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