Wow, what a blow.

So I've done a lot of thinking today...
About myself, and other people as well. How things have changed..People are different, including myself. I've had someone (whose name shall not be named) basically stating that our friendship wasn't all that important, well he didn't say that, but he didn't need to. Does having a significant other really matter so much that you don't need your friends? I find it funny that he/she had to tell me what you said. I want to see if you can say that to my face. This is why I'm afraid of becoming closer with a friend and considering them good friends or even bestfriends. My friends are like family to me, I keep them close to my heart, and when something like this happens, it breaks my heart. It really does. I'm there for my friends when they need me, or at least I try my best to be, is it too much to ask for them to return the favor? I don't know...I'm just going to go to bed now. Good night.

Revenge is sweeter than you ever were.

I should be finishing my homework, but I had an instant urge to blog, so I decided to do that instead.
I've been thinking lately, about a lot of things. At first they were mainly negative thoughts, but now that has changed for the most part. All the negatives are turning into positives. Yes there are things that I wish at times were different, and things I want in life that I don't have, but then again I think some more and I realize what I have now are all good things. Whats the point of sitting around wishing you had more when what you have right in front of you good enough as it is. I'm not exactly sure why the sudden change in thought, but hey it's positive so I don't mind it. High school is so...juvenile. I mean kids go to school and argue, talk shit, and do all these other negative things that get them in trouble. Whats the point? So what if they talk about you? So what if they try to start stuff? Is it really worth it? I mean after high school you're probably never going to see that person again.


I can't believe it's already the end of March, the years almost over and I'm going to be a senior. How crazy is that. People weren't lying when they said that high school goes by fast. It really does. Next year is going to be so different. I'm excited yet afraid at the same time. Am I ready for it? I hope so. Life throws so much at you, some good, some bad, but everything that is thrown at you is an experience. It would either better you as a person or do the complete opposite. Its up to you on how you take it and handle it.


I've been through so much as it is throughout high school, in the beginning a lot of those things were pretty bad, but it was my choice to do those things, it was my choice to cut a lot of school, it was my choice to let my grades slip, it was my choice to make stupid mistakes that left my heart in pieces, but in the end I decided to pick up the pieces and better myself as a person. The person I was when I entered high school, and the person I am now are two completely different people.


I like the person I've become. I've learned to accept and love myself for how I am.


*On a side note*
I really want a polaroid camera. I might actually invest in one. It seems like a fun thing to have. I just need money for it though.







Well that's enough of me blogging about my thoughts for now. Until next time.

I hate school. So VERY much.

I haven't blogged in a while. Thats bad on my part. Sorry! I've been so busy with school, and the musical. I got so behind in school because of the musical. Doing the musical is fun, but just so much work. I didn't know we had to put in so much time into it. Now I know. In all, it's a great experience though. I got to learn the bass trombone so its all good :)

I just got over my cold this week. (FINALLY) I was sick for TWO WEEKS! That was super lame. I had to do so much make-up work. I did manage to get a lot of it done. I'm super stressed out though. Junior year has brought me nothing but stress. Ugh. I can't wait till its over. I doubt next year will be any better though...more responsibilities next year...in band and now ESA. Greeeat. Haha. Its okay though :)

I wasn't going to make this blog very long since I have more work to do. I just wanted to take a little break.


Well I should be a good girl and finish the rest of the work I need to do.



I'll try to keep this thing updated. Until next time :)

I hate being sick :(

I haven't posted a thing since the 3rd, and now its the 10th. Wow, where the hell have I been this past week? Oh yeah, I know. Busy like always. Story of my life.

So I said I was going to write about my birthday. Well since I didn't do so, here it goes!

Wednesday(my actual birthday) A whole bunch of people greeted me which is always nice. I got a whole bunch of sweets too! I had musical rehearsals which was the only downside. A bit after rehearsals all us musical kids decided to go to Applebee's which was pretty awesome.

Thursday I went out to dinner with my family. We decided on going to the House of Prime Ribs in San Francisco. The place with hearty portions and an expensive price (which is so worth it!)

Friday My family came over for what you can call a party I guess. I haven't seen them in such a long time so it was nice to see them all. On top of all that I got to see Rizal, Lizzie, Melody, and Katya. I got caked pretty good by Lizzie and that damn red dye stained my face for a bit! Not cool at all. (which reminds me I think we still have that cake!)

Saturday Katya, Lizzie, and Melody spent the night and we decided to go to Berkeley. Andrew came along with us and we took the bart there. Lizzie bought me some boba and we had lunch at Chipotles! It was a lot of fun. I found out that at Zebras you don't need parent permission to get a piercing (depending on what you want) how cool is that? I bough a couple things there too. We ended up coming back and going to Happy Sashimi for dinner.

Sunday I was "supposed" to practice and do some homework but I ended up not doing that. Instead Katya came to pick me up with Lizzie in the car since she had her L's She drove us places. It was so much fun and it was exciting to see her drive!

That pretty much sums it all up. Now I'm sick. How lame is that? My birthday week is over and I have to be sick. Wtf?! I have so much to do to...I can't afford to be sick. District band rehearsal & concert on Thursday and all day rehearsals for The Wiz on Friday.


Then comes hell week...



I don't think I'm going to go to school tomorrow. I felt like passing out like three or four times today and I had a fever too. Yeah, I think staying home might be a good idea. I might just go to musical rehearsals after school.

Typing all this up made me really sleepy all of the sudden. Maybe I should go take a nap or something. I'll update this post another time with pictures.

Less than two hours until...

MY BIRTHDAY! :) Yee!


I'm super stoked! I'm turning SEVENTEEN baby! You know what that means....rated R movies, rated M games and hella other shit shit. Wow, I sound hella nerdy. Oh well, IDGAF! :)

Rizal sent me a text message earlier that made me smile/giggle.

Rizal: Baby you're almost 17!
Me: YAY! I'm excited :)
Rizal: My Baby's growing up!

I can't wait for Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. What am I doing those days you ask? Well I might as well tell you.

• Thursday: Birthday dinner with the family.
• Friday: Small get together at my house.
• Saturday: Berkeley!

Super excited! :D!

The next time I blog I'll post up pictures :)