What a day...

It's almost 1am, and I'm still up. I can't sleep. It's probably due to the nap I took earlier today. Today was such a stressful day. I have so much work to do it's overwhelming. I'm so tired of school. I'm tired of a lot of things really.

I have projects due in two of my classes next week that require a whole bunch of work. I have concerts and on top of all that our end of the year ESA presentations are next week as well. There's so much in my mind, I don't even know where to start. Lets start with ESA shall we? I love my ESA classes and the people (for the most part), but I'm starting to get so sick of some people in my group. The "president" of our group doesn't do shit and our "vice president" is NEVER at meetings or anything. What does that mean? That means I have to take over and do the work. I don't mind it, but they don't show the effort and try to take credit. I hate that so much. Presentations are next week like I said earlier and we're doing everything we can to make it a good one.

Also, I figured out that now there is a big complication (oh boy). The ESA presentation and the Area Festival are the same day. They conflict in time. My teachers picked me & katya to be the MCs for the night. I was so excited, but then realized I had a concert that night. I tried to talk to nez, but he wouldn't hear it. He didn't compromise with us or anything. Its so upsetting. I don't understand why I can't go to my presentation. I have an important role, and on top of that its worth 20% of my grade in 4 of my classes! I go to EVERY single band event. I do EVERYTHING I'm told to. I take SO MUCH abuse and I ask for one thing, and I can't do it. I'm so sick of it!

Oh top of all that, there are other issues I have to deal with. I cried today so bad. I haven't cried that bad since....well since my uncle passed away. So much stress. So much pressure. I don't know what to do anymore. It just came to the point where all I could do was cry. Its all just so overwhelming. I can't wait till school is over.

There was one person that really made things better. I appreciated all the people asking if I was okay, but there was still just that one person and that person was Rizal. When I cried all he did was hug me tight. He let me cry and was there for me through it all. It showed me he cared and I felt loved.