Hopefully one day...

Hopefully one day, I can learn to fully let go.

To fully let go of everything I keep with me. The things that I wish not to keep anymore.
Is it really worth it? Is it really worth it to try hard to get back what you once lost? Maybe not. Maybe its a lost cause. Just a memory that you cannot get back. I wish everyday for things to go back. Back to the way they were. I see now that it will not happen that way. Over time, I'll learn to accept that. Hopefully sooner than later. There's always going to be that void in my heart.

Some moments, I talk to you, and things seem back to normal, and I feel like theres a slight chance of hope that things will really go back to the way they were. As time goes by I see that all I have is false hope. It saddens me everytime, but thats my fault. My own fault because I decided to never give up. To never give up on our friendship. My persistance seems to have failed me.

I just...can't see to ask you...just that one question...do you even want to be my friend anymore?
I think the reason I can't is because well, I'm afraid of the answer. Someday I will, regardless of what the answer might be, I'll find out the answer to that question.


....maybe I shouldn't try anymore? Maybe I should just give up? As much as its hard for me to do, I might actually do so...